hello my lively' jouranilst out there:

Bonjour? i had so much to say yet so little time to speak. i had a lot of stuff going on this week. oh wait, that's all a lie. i finished my most impt stuff probably by today what's left man? i guess the next thing that is left is locating my perfect url. jkjk nia. why get so agitated. i know alot of people said i had tons of links. from myspace, blogger to livejournal. i know myself from tons of emails updates i had been getting from different servers sites. LOL. but hey if you aren't happy withsomething, for sure you would want it to be perfect right? so seriously no comments here and start praising how wonderful i had things going :D i am such an idiot after all. hehe

one thing, everyone's pretty much about tout of their life lately. some had been mising someone, some had been serious hone sick, some had troubkes with exams, some hate certain places they're at now, some hate the work and mess that they're in now, some hate that the opposition of your BGR haddn't been paying much attention to them, and of course i hate java.

Looking back all those mistakes the basic thing we should ask our.................choices

pretty much now i wouldn't wanna say choices though.

i too had enough of this crap. i wanna run away! get as far as to Boston and enjoy a mild summer there! but it ain't possible you know. i had so much to say with this place. i had countless numbers of complaints. i wanna complain from the society system till the endless to something tiny miny details. there's just so much untold stories about this place. or probably im too young, childish and naive to think this place is ain't the merry go round that i used to like. get real, this is the world. although this world is different from what i used to had.

This is the real world people! This is the world that you and me will live in. Without anything and anyone. we shouldn't really relly too much on people. after all our inner strength are the one that gonna pull us out from every circumstances. This world that i am living in, although comparing them to the cinderella story might not be an ideal case, but we will eventually end up happier than this part of our life!

Sometimes getting homesick is ok for a while. and i don't really mind lending those elephant ears to you. listening to what you had to say.but it seems so different you know. you keep to yourself everything. fearing that people might laugh or something against your sillyness. beleive in yourself. being a kid once in a while relax the whole situation. whenever i'm mad at something or rather for something, i always did something silly. ehich i already did yesterday! i spammed everything from anything i can get. that's not childish! ok even it is. ok this is getting seriously ridiculous. my point is it's all right sometimes to turn low and tell everything you know. all those happiness and stuff. letting it free is a good idea rather than keeping to yourself :)

and about those text it seems so personall. lol

to my dearest, i know whats really on your mind. it's very hard for me i must say. making choices for you will be like sending you to your own graveyards. i'm not there for you so i don't wanna take any chance. i am afraid that you might get hurt. and i know how you'll be like when you're hurt. deep down, every one wants you to be happy. whatever it is, what the outcome is, that is the choice you made. i just want you to know that i'll always be here for you. although we're like millions miles apart, but we had those ET connection. but i misjudged how you felt yesterday. probably my factor was that". if you know what i meant.

to the chilli boy. oh my thank god u got your chilli grilled. try adding some spice onto your sweet and sour chilli. I'm sure it'll spicen up life sohow too. LOL

to the worst mother duck. hey take a time back and relax man. i know some words are easy to say but carrying out the action is dmn hard. instead of carrying them why don't i suggest u take a weekend off and had some spree? LOL. i think it's impossible too. whatever it is, keep updating! i am sure that's the only getaway to fucking schedueles.

speaking back to me, i ahd ain't any time left. i had farking problems piled like a mountain. javascript and java. i fucking love them till i wanna fuck them! wordless to describe those stuff you know because they are the one that controls the whole system. the DOM and AJAX and shit fuck java. im turning more like into a java student now. oh my oh my just let me get into a perfect place where i don't have to face a weird course like this.

if i ever can turn my time back, i'll make sure i submit my seatlle college form earlier by a few sememsters. instead of waiting for this crap. being me is ain't easy. and neither are you. but i guess everyone had their own problems.

and for O's takers: that include you chilli boy! goodluck for your prelims now. it may seems like u had 10(decades) dates left, but you ain't! i used to think 100 is a lot. but the truth is, it's gonna keep you nuts to think that 100 will be the next 10 and 1 and eventually the paper just flew on your table. it all seems like yesterday. and i didn't realize it had been a year! time past by really fast :D

and playing with fire soon just excites me alot :DD
what do you think?

comments are moderate. LOL. as if like i had tons of them.